I can't remember when it first started; the anxiety, the depression, the debilitating feeling of having no control over my emotions, but I’ll never forget how it impacted my ability to work, socialise, date and just live.
I struggled with relationships, but I desperately wanted deeper connections.
I was an excessive worrier and over thinker, and my internal dialogue was negative, nasty, vicious. Constantly analysing everything.‘You’re this’ or ‘you’re that’ ‘you can do better’ ‘you didn’t do that thing’ ‘you should have said this’ ‘why didn’t you think of that’. I didn’t feel like I deserved to be happy and thought I would never have the confidence to achieve my goals.
When my head would hit the pillow at night, the day’s events would play out in my mind over and over. I’d been utterly exhausted for years. I needed coffee to function, but it made the anxiety so much worse.
The smallest things would cause me to lose it, and I had a lot of other health issues I couldn’t seem to get a grip on. I had terrible PMS, insomnia and my digestion was a whole other story.
I felt like I was just surviving but I wanted to be thriving.
I was yearning for connection.
I had ideas and plans that I wasn’t prepared to give up on.
I wanted to truly LIVE my life. I thought to myself, if I don’t do this now, then when, so I finally plucked up the courage to ask for help.
Initially, I went to a GP who gave me an anti-depressant. I had no idea what I was taking, but I was told it would make me feel better so of course, I started taking it. I remember feeling relieved to have a break from the constant mind chatter. It numbed my negative emotions for a short time, but it also made me feel weird. I didn't feel like me.
Suddenly, I had zero sex drive.
My creativity was gone.
I started to put on weight.
I was confused. I wasn't sure what was worse; living with my crazy mind or living like a zombie. I knew that there had to be a better way. I wanted to get to the root cause, not just this band-aid style approach.
Determined to find answers I enrolled to study a health science degree.
It was in my first year at uni that I saw a wonderful naturopath who changed my life!
She helped me to get off the medication and feel myself again. She discovered biological reasons that explained my symptoms. She looked at all aspects of my life and allowed me to understand how I could take back control of how I was feeling.
It was the start of my journey back to health. The start of my journey back to me.
With the support of someone who understood me and was there for me, in combination with some herbal and nutritional medicine, I started to feel a weight lifting off my shoulders.
In only a few months I started to feel like I was gaining control over my life and how I was feeling. It was such a relief to know that I was improving my health naturally. I was amazed to see that the things that would normally stress me out didn’t phase me anymore.
With a clearer mind, I discovered that if I wanted to live authentically and really step into my individual power I would have to face every aspect of myself. I would have to understand my triggers, and own myself; the negative parts as well as the positive parts.
In time, my negative self talk was replaced with positivity and love.
I realised that if I was the one responsible for putting limits on my life, it made sense that I was also the one who was responsible to create a life without limits. With that, I gave myself permission to create my dream life.
What excited me (and the humanitarian Aquarius in me) the most, is seeing how this holistic approach not only helps ones self, but how it shines outward to help LIBERATE others in the same way.
I was inspired, and I wanted ANYONE who had been though anything similar to me to have the same opportunity. I knew that I wanted to help others make the transformation I had made, so once I finished my naturopathy degree, I devoted my work to helping those who struggle with their mental health.
These days, I feel capable, optimistic and i am passionate about life. I have deep respect for how I’m feeling, and if I’m having an off day I honour it gently, instead of with self-criticism like I used to. I have energy to keep up with my kids, go to the gym and yoga.
I love that I can be a part of someone else's journey in a positive way. It gives me such a gorgeous blissful feeling when I see my clients reach their goals. That to me is so fulfilling and it brings me pure happiness.
It’s hard to even imagine what my life would be like today if I didn’t take the steps and ask for help.
If you are tired of the overwhelm and anxiety and want to tap into your own power and feel more balanced in your body and mind I’m here to tell you that it IS POSSIBLE!
If you want to move forward with your life goals, feel amazing and start thriving instead of surviving, reach out for help.
You don’t have to go it alone.
There are so many amazing people out there supporting people just like you to live that full, expansive existence.
You’ve got this!
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